Nervous

The date seriously getting closer and closer. Those seniors, Hwee Sheng, Gen Li, Si Hao, Seto, Nathan and YuQin are all getting in army this week. All the best to them.

I am now physically, mentally not ready for army. Physically, impossible for me to reach the nafa standards. Mentally, i am feeling stressed over what will happen in the army. Watched the " every Singaporean's son" . They sounded that army is so fun, so interesting but it makes me think is it really true? i dun even know what to expect inside. In PES B(p), i am going to be in for BMT for a longer period. ARGHH. i am feeling like thousands of ants crawling inside my body, the nervousness and itchness inside that you cant scratch to stop the it. Question keep popping out, can i work well with my mates inside? will i be able to cope well?

Furthermore, i need to consider which route i have to go after army, either to sign on or continue study. However i still dunno how the system work for signing on. Studying straight after army seemed to be over-costly for my parents. Sigh....