Sights of me

Ordinary person with ordinary look with ordinary lifestyle. Feel free to look at my blog. It is just some thoughts, feelings and sight that i felt and experience.

Saturday, December 31, 2011

NEW YEAR 2011

Time flies pass real fast. I had been in army for 1year le. My fellow polymates and secondary schmates are all in army right now. Lots of happening in last year, experiences and many "1st time". Know a lot more people and stuffs.

Resolutions? I am still quite blur of what future do I want. Perhaps this year i just want to really figure out what i want in life.

For everyone out there, happy new year!^^

Maybe one quote that i think is nice for this year,
IT IS NICE TO HAVE FRIENDS TO WALK YOUR LIFE WITH YOU, BUT DONT FORGET, YOUR FAMILY IS ALSO EQUALLY IMPORTANT WHEN EVERYTHING FAILS.

NEW YEAR 2011

Time flies pass real fast. I had been in army for 1year le. My fellow polymates and secondary schmates are all in army right now. Lots of happening in last year, experiences and many "1st time". Know a lot more people and stuffs.

Resolutions? I am still quite blur of what future do I want. Perhaps this year i just want to really figure out what i want in life.

For everyone out there, happy new year!^^

Maybe one quote that i think is nice for this year,
IT IS NICE TO HAVE FRIENDS TO WALK YOUR LIFE WITH YOU, BUT DONT FORGET, YOUR FAMILY IS ALSO EQUALLY IMPORTANT WHEN EVERYTHING FAILS.

Thursday, November 10, 2011

ROC~~~

i am back from ROC. it was like finally!.... after 3 weeks+ of torment and rotting away. the training i don't wanna to elaborate.... but taiwan do hav wide choice of food, 7-11 that works like a cafe, receipts that can be lottery tickets for cash prizes.

Night markets definitely is a must-go, not only u get to experience the crowd, u get to know the way they live, what food they eat and varieties of products and services which you dont get to see here and are all so tempting to buy home.

Due to the currency difference, S$1=22.5NT approx. So during R&R, you just hav to go into any one restaurant. spending around 30NT and you get a nice bowl of rice with either chicken or braised pork. Thus, for me, spend like S$2 and i can hav a great, filling lunch.

Thanks to "04" who go the extra effort to buy me an angry bird cream cake for a belated birthday celebration for me. For those who wished me happy b'day... i thank all of u too...
Especially for Gina and Peiyi( wasted nv receive yours) which send me their wishes thru sms on the actual day even when they know i am at ROC.

Good experience overall, but 1month out of country is kinda too long... missed home and everything in Singapore.

Sunday, October 9, 2011

bye sg... hi ROC

bye guys... going ROC for 1mths.. cyas

Sunday, September 25, 2011

update.

Got lazy in updating... recently nothing much happened.

Since the last post,
-attended aaron b'day chalet
-attended edward b'day chalet
-paid $120 for re-making my lost passport
-Lots of saikang in camp
-Cobra 35th anniversary
-A minor platoon outing@ momiji / teo heng singing session
- attended kelly's birthday celebration
-the full of injuries PT session recently
-Wenting b'day buffet/ night drinking


Highlights
In camp, a new batch of people came into our unit. There are some from other unit which OOC-ed or transferred here. Kinda unfair as they are ranks above us, like LCP and CPL... and they are going to ORD a lot earlier than us... *envy* Our PT got a lot "xiong-er" with our 3-crab commander coming down more often to check on us.

Running 4km with long-4 and boots sux... my old knee injury is back with vengeance, walking down the stairs and jumping will give me problems...

We had our 35th anniversary in our camp 2 weeks ago whr every unit in our division came down from all over Singapore to celebrate.

-did a warm up called "tae-box" (taewondo+boxing) in the rain
-ran in a 8km fun and got 2nd in the whole div cos the top runners went for the cobra challenge some navigated the wrong way to the finish line which landed them running an additional 3km
-guard duty after this event ...zzz. Missed the gala nite but luckily some of our people got food from the fiesta for us... so nice of them...

it waas an unexpected platoon outing, which started out when my urge of having sushi buffet came and i asked if anyone wanted to go.... as it goes, it turned out to have 15 people attending at a japanese buffet @momiji. May have more people if there arent any small hicups like ulcers, ps kias and car broke down. A lot nice food over there, first time eat sashimi, tuna, chocolate fondue and quite a lot of cooked delicacies and sushi. After eating till bloated, we went to teo heng to sing for ard 3hrs before ending this off with a surprise b'day celebration for patrick.


Ytd had a birthday celebration at vienna international seafood buffet. That is an expensive buffet... S34.90 per head... My friend seriously is rich as she almost book the whole place other than the the un-"air-conditioned" area with around 80-100 relatives and friends. Yummy, variety of seafood that include crocodile soup 0.o. Had a good amount of fish, lobster, crab and desserts that make you drools. After the meal, we went to Thomson road where the pub and cafe are. i had a bottle of Heineken at the liquid's kitchen while waiting for everyone to reach by cab. We went on to Ming's cafe, friends called for a beer tower and had some dice game, sing song over there.. maybe the songs of the people picked there are so oldies that we decided to move to the pub called "talk cock, sing song" We total drank around 3 tower over there. Puked once over there, but luckily i prepared myself at the toilet when i puked. My friend dirtied the place where he puked at the seats we are at. We played darts and guess fist to spend the time there. Got a small fight over there..

Friday, August 5, 2011

Is friendship really that vunerable?

Apparently, it does..

Why? In my opinion, personal gains and human's selfish nature are the the problems of such issue.

Personal gains, people that got together due to mutual benefits, using the word " friend" to have access conveniently to what they want to have. This "friends" are usually short-term, and easily broken due to short quarrels, clashes of differing ideas or even no longer of use to them. I am not being skeptical or negative but it is just that I came across too many abusing the word "friend" for undesirable personal benefits, such as digging out gossips, for a moment of cure from loneliness and boredom, social experiments and even just to make stepping stone for making themselves look great.

It may true that is how it work in the harsh real world where "friendships" comes from the value each will get from them. "Friends" that are so close to each other can be enemy the next moment when one of the party cannot endure a joke/trick made by the other, and even go out to the extend of a physical fight and a lot of sarcastic remarks to the other party. I am kinda disappointed with some of them. Humans are not perfect, I sometimes also did some of the mistakes i mentioned. Only realizing what I did, years later, are just foolish acts when I look at people younger than me doing the same thing.

I don't expect that all friendship are only consist of selfishness, there are people that do come together due to common hobbies or even sharing the same volunteerism attitude towards the less fortunate that ask for nothing in return. Frequently, there are disagreements. Settle it peacefully, rationally without hurting the friendship will definitely makes it stronger, just like how boy-girls relationship works. However, this is always the biggest and hardest step to make when one have to put down their pride and listen what the others has to say, which contradicts their owns' perceptive.


How I wish friends can be just as pure as this song and people do make an effort of treasuring the comradeship and companionship of the friends that they had. I do believe that there are friends that do not really care who you are or what's your background, but just wanted to walk their life with you, creating wonderful, colourful memories. For those out there that may had read this, school and army( for singaporean) will be the best place to find your true friends, your lifetime relationship who you share joy, woes with

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Emo

There are times where things don't go your way, you cannot really decide or think what you can do, and losses occurs.

1 yr death anniversary of one of my friend is coming. It feels just like last year when i last see her, but it has been one year le. Every time i walked past a funeral ceremony under the void deck, a sudden sadness just overcome me. Her images just scrolled thru my mind, my first friend that had been around me and left us out of a sudden.

Thinking back during my block leave, i went to Kuala Lumpur. My BMT mates rented a car and drove everyone there. I remembered hearing that the accident is just 1.8km from JB, I just went emo-ing and holding back my tears when we reached somewhere near. I don't know why but i am just this emotional. RIP, Cindy.


This is just a video of her siblings put up to commemorate the times they have with her. Not a true story and not created by them but a sad sad story that shows how they felt over her....



Ernest i think this explain your feelings, but do cheer up, jiayous=)



Army made my time with friends really limited, no time for them as there will always be sudden changes and duties that will spoil the planning of outings.... i missed the outing of the "ikea grp" cos of guard duty that they only informed us on the actual weeks...sigh...
I also missed the secondary school class outing, which doesnt come often because everyone is busy to meet up, due to cobra's night.. There are a lot of stuff that i missed out or went very late for them which somehow causing some drifting apart from my friends to a stage I find it hard to start common topics with them during the limited successful outings.



My IPPT score for this month

Pull-up = 10
Sit up = 38
SBJ = 222cm
Shuttle Run = 10.0 sec
2.4km = 10.19 min


i was just 3cm to silver to get my $100. Sianzzzz....
My target next month is to up my sit up to 42, SBJ to 225, 2.4km to 10min flat.
Time to train up=)










Friday, July 22, 2011

变 is a common thing in life. Not everything can really stay with you for a lifetime.The only thing you can only do is to just treasure the present and learn from the loss/mistakes you had.
希望这歌我更珍惜生活

Sunday, July 3, 2011

Finally...

half yr past.... i am finally in my unit life.... Life for the first few weeks is tougher than those in S.I. this week going to have field camp and 10km route march... it will be a rough one =(

I am selected to be involve in the upcoming pan pacific event of the army... free no.3... but will hav to miss the chance of learning how to drive.


Kinda feel lonely at home sia... no much stuff to do.. just rot...
Looking forward next week to meet up with meixian and the rest of the "ikea grp"

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Stagmont camp trainee

2nd phrase in army just goes on after BMT, i am posted to stagmont camp as a trainee to learn to be a signaller. currently passed 4 weeks out of the 8 week course before posted out to other units to apply what i has learnt here.

First day reporting there i had a shock. Shocked that i am the only obese/PES Bp in my platoon, shocked that i am the only odd one out with only '0' lvl and the rest basically is all JCs, shocked that i am one of the oldest there as everyone else is only 19 yrs old. As per normal, i need time before i can open up to strangers, i was like emo-ing for the first 2 weeks as their preferred language is english, the topics they converse on is like "what course u apply in uni? ", " what JC are u from?"... -.-

I am sian 1/2, why i am the only one in my dragon platoon to come here.


As day goes by, i get to know them better, able to start topic, talk cock. Life there is just basically want u to study and study to understand the operations and technical terms that you have to know before you get posted to unit. Come army also have to study-.-

Things is going well, except that my PT isnt as good as them, catching up with them is quite a challenge as some of them are from enhanced batch. Studywise, perhaps they absorb the knowledge faster and i got some problems with finishing the courseware within the time limits of the self study classes.

Through talking cock, chatting, i get to know their life stories, their life in JCs. Somehow or whatever it is kinda interesting, knowing how ppl had lived their life. Wish me luck in the tests, field activities and exams coming my ways... cheers.

Saturday, February 19, 2011

Army

In a blink of eye, 12 weeks of BMT is done.. just ard 7 weeks more and i am done with it.

Basically, this post is just to inform my friends out there that i am doing fine and overall lost ard 18kg. Currently is 89kg. 10kg more to acceptable weight. For those who had finished their polytechnic studies, congrats and all the best for the males cause you all are going to be like me going into army soon. As for females, wish you all able to continue studies on local university or able to find a job as a fresh graduate.

My plan for my future is still quite blur..... currently if i wanted to continue to study after NS. Basically i have to fork out money on my own(work to save up) or take part time diploma. There is also another path which is to sign on army. I have to admit that i cant be someone of a leader, as a commander so seriously, the path towards OCS or SISPEC is really hard for me. Looking towards all the recruitment talks, infantry isnt really of my interest, navy seemed to be interesting and good in future prospects. Air force hasnt give their talk on their schemes.

Going into navy, for me, with only an "o" lvl cert, i can at most be a chef over there-.- However, it is still possible for me to upgrade myself after i work for them 3yrs with the sponsorship they give. The question is for myself is should i do so? After some calculation, relatively the pay i get for working for them and working outside is around the same. Furthermore with the sponsorship after the 3 yrs period and chances to go out sea for missions(as a chef-.-) , it is quite value-added.... sigh....

PRESSURE PRESSURE PRESSURE

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

Self-made videos

Have been going out more frequently with friends as the date grew closer... really no time to update much since this post should be the last post for a couple of months as tomorrow i am going to be enlisted in army.

Quick update: Thonning over at gina house
: Watch "tong yan" the horror show at ehub and thonned overnite at jiayi hse :Watch RED with Alvin
:Watch Harry Potter with Alvin
:Mahjong over at Jiayi house
:Ikea outing with the Ikea clique
:Party organised by ernest and julia for my army's farewell
:Created 2 video as a thank you to my friends

yep i did two videos le...one is for cancri and the other for cs subcom. dun hav enuff time to make one last one for year 3 batch and some of the yr2s. i will do it if i have a chance. what i scared is the loss of friends when i am in army.

Below are the two videos:





Photos are taken from facebook, cscc blog. The second video got photos of DSA students which i think is inappropriate to put up on facebook.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Retired but Extremely Dangerous

Watched this show recently with alvin. Initially, this guy Frank Moses is a retired CIA agent that had a extremely boring life after he retired. He spent his life by stalking a bank stuff with the reason of his pension. So this show looks so boring until one night a team of SWAT team came into his house to assassinate him. All the actions starts to happen. Nice thrills and interesting characters. Good twists and strategies in the show to get help from his past CIA mates, finding those responsible of wanting him dead. 4 stars for this show. Retired, Extremely Dangerous.

Monday, November 8, 2010

Nervous

The date seriously getting closer and closer. Those seniors, Hwee Sheng, Gen Li, Si Hao, Seto, Nathan and YuQin are all getting in army this week. All the best to them.

I am now physically, mentally not ready for army. Physically, impossible for me to reach the nafa standards. Mentally, i am feeling stressed over what will happen in the army. Watched the " every Singaporean's son" . They sounded that army is so fun, so interesting but it makes me think is it really true? i dun even know what to expect inside. In PES B(p), i am going to be in for BMT for a longer period. ARGHH. i am feeling like thousands of ants crawling inside my body, the nervousness and itchness inside that you cant scratch to stop the it. Question keep popping out, can i work well with my mates inside? will i be able to cope well?

Furthermore, i need to consider which route i have to go after army, either to sign on or continue study. However i still dunno how the system work for signing on. Studying straight after army seemed to be over-costly for my parents. Sigh....


Sunday, October 31, 2010

Ouija outing



Recently had an Ouija outing, my b'day celebration at Holland. V's zi char. The event was great since the last outing.. which is quite long ago.
This is the card they made for me, and the cow on my cake. There are some sweet wishes they had for me in my cards. I really appreciated everything they did, glad that Ouija is still going strong as a FOW group after 2 yrs and Christel willing to continue be Mummy after being MIA at CSCC. And the Ad-hoc Uncle of Ouija, Johnson for being so on in the outings of Ouija.



And also congrats to Johnson! May both of you last long and sweet :D My b'day will be your yearly anniversary.. haha


Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Photos from my b'day=)

Jiayi and Vivian. Just notice nv take a grp photo for the whole gang
My hair dam cui, after work. Those two cupcakes are my b'day cakes^^
That's my cake too=)
alvin , yiyuan, gladys , wan xian!

Monday, October 25, 2010

22nd oct ...

Finally my last day of work. Giving myself one mth of break, meeting up with friends, settle some unsettled stuffs and prepare myself for army...

Anyway i only has like 4hrs to celebrate my b'day, cos my work end at 6plus. Kinda rush as my work end at yishun chong pang area. My initial plan was going for b.ball with andrew, kienan and gang at hougang or serangoon before going for my sec sch 5A's sports gathering at PHS. But in the end everything change cos those purple line gang a lot cannot make it for the b.ball session and it was cancelled. the secondary sch gathering was worse... the planner fail... nv follow up... then no ppl going and he himself got other activity on that day-.-///

Then sian 1/2, i meet up with alvin for dinner at Northpoint. On my way there, coincidentally i met gladys and yiyuan. They are going to meet up with their clique out for movie, and asked whether alvin and me whether we want to join them. In the end, we decided to go amk to have something to eat cos they watching the show over there. Sock Teng and Wan Xian joined us over there. Shared a double-up chicken with alvin cos i still have a dinner date with ernest and gang, cannot eat too full, and budget tight. They somehow, dunno how, got a cake for me. Dam surprise! Cos this is really so last min, anyway my b'day candle is so epic... yiyuan used a tissue and roll into a stick and burn it at the tip. He say the cake shop never provide.. but in the end we found one in the plastic bag-.-

Ard 7+, i left to go city hall meet up with ernest and gang. And they went to amk hub watch their horror show.

I reached city hall at 8pm but lost my way at suntec-.- in the end, took me 15min to find them at mac playing monopoly deal. they are all waiting for me to eat.. felling a bit guilty=/ So we went down to whr the fountain of wealth are, and ate at fei cui ramen branch. fei cui =expensive. 1 main dish with the drink and service charge at least 10 dollar le. i ordered the cheapest bowl of noodles and one dessert alrdy cost me 12.50 excluding the charges. Vivian and Jiayi both so experienced in ordering the food, know which dish is nice and which one is not. haha.. maybe the price range is out of my budget-type food. Anyway, the food is nice and ambience not bad other than the staff slightly pushing us to leave earlier as they are closing soon. 2 cupcakes and b'day song for my b'day marked the end of the dinner, as we left separately to go home as we all live at all diff directions. Edward accompanied me home, as usual, talking with pricks in our words in the half hr journey. Thanks you guys for treating me the meal=)

Lastly, i reached home ard 11plus. My family was waiting for me to cut cake too. Fabulous black forest cake, nice but a bit too full to eat. Overall was a nice day=D






Sunday, October 17, 2010

da da da






"da da da" is from this video parody of 后舍男生, it keep on rhythm in my head. i liked their lip-sync. super accurate and exaggerating expression that those who try to copy what they seem like nerds . they are at college when they did these parodies.. now they are adults and there arent any new videos that they do. btm is one of the slightly more interesting lip-sync video of 不得不愛 and their super nice song mv 哦咦哦咦啊.




Anyway today i went to ubin with meixian and junhao after the morning rain ard 2pm. Cloudy and windy made the weather just nice. Had our lunch at changi village before we took a ferry to ubin. We rented our bike and started our journey to cek jawa whr you can take good scenery photos and enjoy the fresh air and sea breeze. It is like my second time travelling long distance in bike and first time riding at ubin and encountering slopes. Ard 2/3 journey towards there, at one of the steep slope... i allowed myself to free- flow down the slope, little did i know that there is a short curve and there i go without the knowledge of braking, travelling almost at full spd went towards mx and jh who are at btm of the slope waiting for me. i was startled la, and i made a turn and crashed into the tree. luckily, there isnt any big cut or broken bones, just some scratches and bleeding on my legs, and a broken bike. Sian in the end i had to walk my bike to cek jawa and all the way back to the jetty's bike shop which is dam far from cek jawa.


However our trip isnt futile as we got to breath those fresh air that u cant get at sg mainland, the cool sea breeze that east coast cant provide and the view of canopy of ubin from the viewing- tower. Below are some pictures to speak what we did today=)



Saturday, October 16, 2010

da da da

I got my enlistment date le... it is on the 25 nov. It is super fast cos i thought i can drag till next year whr i can attend aspiration camp.

I am trying to meet up with as many friends as possible within this few weeks. Currently had my secondary school outing at yio chu kang. sing song talk cock and amk macdonalds.

i attended aspiration workshop ytd and learned the mass dance before going swimming with johnson and alvin. First time swim so much, cos everytime slack at the pool instead of swimming. After swimming, we went to play pool, then dinner at sumo house and koi on the way back home. Relaxing day.

Today meeting up with junhao, meixian to ubin for photography. Not really into photographing.. haha.. i treat it as an excursion for me.. morning it rained so we going later on at noon. may it be windy and no rain or strong sun.

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Work (long post, a lot irrelevant stuff)

Worked for a week le. My company is DKSH. It is a supplier company. And for my department, it is in charge of the brand Darlie, Prima and Campbells. My job basically is as a post of merchandiser, which need to run around different outlets to arrange and order goods in various supermarkets, watsons and guardians. Slightly tiring, the pay system isnt really that good. But just lazy to find better work.

I seriously feel dam fat sia, or should i say i am fat. Seriously has to cut down on supper and soft drink le. i need to go running to slim down!! i got no discipline in my workouts.

Just a list down of what i have done this month:

5A outing at yishun's eighteen chef- nice chat with my secondary classmates, lol, didnt know that one of my female classmates watched porn before... lol... she described a little too detailed and asked super detailed question for the guys that we felt overly-embarrassed to answer her. haha. Our class remaining number is ard 15 out of 40.

CS/Cultural's mooncake festival event- meaningful event but i only went like 15min of the event due to work and a stupid joke of me. it goes like this, over there there are two areas of identical block number. Suppose to find the block no. 105 but i went to the wrong area and couldnt find that block other than 114, 110. Then i called a cs subcom member wan chew. She was at the right area and she told me she was at the block 110. So we kinda played hide and seek finding each of us at block 110's lift lobby of different area -.- i was like half an hour then we notice we are at different area and thus i had to take a taxi to the event location. i only managed to attend the last 15min of the event giving out 2 plates of mooncakes, pomelo and the lucky draw before the events end. We ate at the tiong bahru mall's foodcourt before we went home.

The trip home was even more imba epic. Some of you may know one of the cs subcom member, galen is living just beside block of me. So we have like an hour journey back home together as the rest are going west and east. It was the second time i went home with him. The first time is the first basketball intercons training. We basically just ignored or act blur all the way to khatib from school, our awkward silence is too much that he took the initiative to find a reason of buying supper to avoid it. This time we did almost the same thing, or even worse we are like totally stranger, at the start, we were standing side by side but as the mrt moves on, our distance got further and further away with people in between us. I was like sms-ing gina what we doing to act busy and he also take out phone now and then. It was until khatib mrt when we tap out which we are unable to avoid liao, we have the total same route home. We have no choice but to start topic, anyway we manage to keep the convo going till we reach home. Lol? Hopefully we have the chance to know each other better....

Clique's chalet- i didnt attend the full 1 day chalet as it is a monday and i had to work. i reach there around 9pm. We had a little to much food to go as i had like 1 litre of milk in my tummy from work to home and to there. Anyway, i was really surprised that they had an super-early birthday celebration with me. Thanks guys and gals. I really appreciated it. We had some random random chit-chat and watched some tv. Later on at nite, we went to the air-con room to cam-whore. CC and PY gave us their souvenirs from Vietnam and Thailand.

Sometimes, cam-whoring at chalet isnt nice when u see a orb,"moon" on the photo. I gave a scare to the rest that PY cried. I was a little bad cause PY got the most impact for she was the closest to me. I was too tempted when the atmosphere was just nice as people was talking about ghostly stuff. Ard 5 plus, we sent KS to the mrt and ard 7 i went back home as i got an headache from the super cold room and i didnt have any pillow and blanket.


Some thanks to some ppl close to me=D
Thanks PY for the letter. You are the first good female friend that i had I appreciated everything small, sweet little thing that you had done=). I like the way you talk what you feel, the way which you dared to speak out to everyone.

Thanks CC for bearing those random rants, grumbles i had with u. I always respected and admired everything you do is of the best that you can do. I like your confidence, maturity at times.

Thanks Nest for being so "gay" at times. Your slow response and different frequency at times are always so entertaining and funny. I like your always-changing hairstyle, responsibility at work, and the care for friends.

Thanks WC for giving good advices. I know you don't like people to compare you with your bro, haha. Your joke always awkward silence, and srsly funny that you can be tickled till you cry. Now u still can act cute and more daring to step up as a leader. i like your seriousness in work, playfulness during leisure and enthusiasm in cca.

Thanks KS for being there during FOC 09/10 logistics, subbing me as logis IC for FOC 10/11.
I admired your luck with chiobu and being the most elder of the group. i like the way you bring smiles to people's face with the right jokes and the right time, and seriously you dun look like 21yr old.

Thanks Gina for being my friend since FOC. We gone thru a lot together, Cancri- cs subcom interview- cs subcom- LTC's unbeatables - MC till now yr3. You have been a pleasure as a company, cheerful and sometimes blur. I like you being always the one to liven up spirits, and starting a conversation with anyone without much trouble, biasness.

Thanks jiayi for being my exam mates during yr 1 and yr2. I know i troubled you a lot. Your small lovey dovey quarrels with nest have always being a nice show for those beside. I admired you being able to hold on to your stand to problems, forward-looking and had a mind of your own that is not easily influenced.

There are still a few true friend i wanted to thank, those bonds that i had with them but if i missed out will expose to some that i didnt regard them as close friends.

Tuesday, September 14, 2010

Solving underperformed ppl

Hm.. this is something to remind myself and those who want to know..


There is a scenario given from the webbie above. But the main points are below

For the leader/employer, your teammate/ employee have worked for you for so long, it is quite pointless to reject/ pull down ppl from their post. Other juniors and employees may have a false impression that getting such high post have a lack of security, thus they may not commit to what they feel they dun have a sense of belonging to. As long as they have the right and positive attitude, problems can be salvage.

3 considerations to start with:

1st: You had picked/hired your team/employee, you should get to the root of the problem first. Is it lack of talent/skill, lack of effort or lack of communication?

2nd: Avoiding or ignoring is futile, as a leader you will lose out as you need more effort to get the job done well.

3rd: Desperate measure such as firing or replacing is as last resort. It is hard to train and find new employee/team to work well with the current team. The new member may be ostracized by the older ones. Even you wanna substitute and take up their post, it will be making your ownself difficult.

People underperformed for one of the two reasons: either they can't do the job or they won't do the job. Communication among the employer /leader have to be mutual. Make sure you make known of what is the expectation and priorities for the specific person/post. If they can't do the job, guide and provide them with the help of senior staff or training.

If they wont do the job, or cause of pure laziness, the best way is give them consistent face to face feedback, may it by project to project basis or month to month basis.

A: Focus on the fact. Don't pinpoint their mistakes mercilessly, use their previous performances or mistakes to compare with their current state. Don't use other people's performances to match theirs, they will turn defensive and bad competition may occur within your team.

B: Explain the impact. How you feel for their performances?

C: Explain the impact on the organisation. How is the morale affected? How is the team affected ? The under performer should know how their behavior is affecting others. This will add their awareness of their behavior

D: Request improvement. Have the employee/team come up with a solution. Follow up to see whether did they apply their solutions.

If after sometime that you feel all the effort you made still goes to waste, tell yourself that you did what you can, as long as you did to the best you can, no one will blame you if you laid off or give up on someone.

This is an post for myself to self-motivate. 80% of the points are from the source and 20% is from my own experience.








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Reminiscing the past: Peiying Primary 6B '02



Yep the first photo is the graduating photo during my pri 6 class. What made me went all the mess to find this photo out of my messy room was the Facebook event of Sihao about primary sch outing. For your info, i am of the same batch as Sihao during primary sch... just that different class and we never met before until poly. Kinda envious that they still remain in contact after near to 10yrs. That guy at the top left hand corner is me... dun ask me why i so thin when i am young.. i just grew fatter and fatter over the years. ( my proud achievement in primary sch was 5th in boys category cross country run, 1st in my class of sec1 and 2 "2.4km" run. Sigh... thats history)

Facebook is really a good application. Easy to search long- lost contacted primary school friends and look at what they are doing now. From some stalking/browsing... some of friends are doing real fine... some graduated from NTU and already in the workforce, some finished their NS and some even had their own family. Time really flies... from all those innocent faces to mature young adult/parents.

However, Facebook isn't that almighty. Some people just dun like their names and changed to some weird ones which made it hard to find. i only managed to find one out of my two besties in primary school namely Jorvin Soh but the other guy i still cant find, Oh Han Sheng. We all lost contacts when we went secondary school. Our batch very suay, last batch that continue the system of picking schools before the PSLE. Although we have the same 6 choices, our results separated us to 3 different schools, 3 different area. My school PHS(yio chu kang), jorvin's sch at YTSS (yishun) and hansheng's at AMKSS (ang mo kio). Seriously missing the past a lot...


The second photo is the live mini concert that my secondary school's friend organised for his birthday/ fans. He is the Campus superstar first season top 5 contestant, Chen YiYuan. It is also the first 5A mini gathering for my sec 5 class since the last outing that clashed with the weekend activity10/11, though attendance not good but we did have some good moments together. Below is one of the video that he peformed during the contest. Just wanna wish him happy b'day and fly high with his music dreams.
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Sunday, August 29, 2010

Building the Winning Team


Some small research of improving and getting a successful team. This article is from www.businesstown.com/people/motivation-team.asp. Maybe it can of some help to some. Highlighted ones is those that i feel slightly more that we need to take note.

Building the Winning Team

"Everyone wants to feel that they are on a winning team, that the company is moving ahead, and that they are an integral part of the group."

Beyond Hiring Great People
Building the winning team requires more than just hiring a bunch of talented people.

It means hiring people who will work well together.

It means developing a shared vision and commitment.

It means physically bringing people together in formal group meetings for open discussion of broad-based issues.

It means encouraging positive, informal interactions between group members.

It means instilling a "winning" attitude throughout the organization.

It means watching for and quickly trying to reverse team-building problems such as jealousy, cynicism, and defensive behavior.

Meetings Build Teams
Part of building the winning team is having some group meetings. Meetings, or even parties or celebrations, with as many people as possible from the entire organization, help build a feeling of solidarity throughout the organization.

But it is also important to have everyone participate in smaller group meetings where some work is done or some decisions are made. This makes people feel that they aren't just part of some big group, but that they are an active, important part of a team.

For key managers, or people in your work group, you should have an interactive meeting once per week-not a meeting where you just make announcements and summarize the work that's been done and needs to be done, but a meeting where everyone has an opportunity to give feedback on substantive issues.


Watch Out For Team Destroyers!
Here are some of the problems that can rip the team-building process apart.

Jealousy. Be on guard for jealousy whenever a new member is hired into the group. Go out of your way to tell other team members how much their work is appreciated.

Cynicism. Some people are just negative by nature. Others might feel your company can't possibly prosper or they just don't like small companies, big companies, or whatever . . . . Be sure you are emphasizing the company's positive achievements to the group as a whole. And don't hesitate to confront any openly cynical individual and demand their behavior change at once.

Lack of confidence. Some people lack confidence in themselves and view attacks on their opinions as attacks on themselves, responding with statements like "Are you telling me my fifteen years of experience don't matter?" Stop any discussion like this immediately and, in a private one-on-one meeting, patiently point out the defensive behavior.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

CS 08/09 gathering


Today started off at 1pm when i woke up. It is the 15th of the lunar month. Most of the chinese are preparing the offerings for the gods and ancestors. Yep, i am no different... i had to help out my mum to set up the offerings the whole afternoon. Time goes fast and it is 5plus.

I am late for the outing which is suppose to be at 3. It is at simei, at gina house. seriously dam far, had to transfer bus after reaching simei station. I took a short cut and took 969 to tampines first. What's beautiful for this trip is the rainbow that was formed on my trip there. It is the first rainbow that i had seen since secondary school. The rainbow appeared for around 15mins of my journey before it is covered by the dark clouds. Just for everyone's knowledge, rainbow is actually not a semi-circle but a full circle... just that we are unable to see the full circle when we are on the ground.

Anyway, back to the topic, i reached gina house ard 40 mins. The attendance is not that great and we have wei chuan joining us too. I missed out the fun part of buying and preparing of the food items. sobs. But just nice for the start of steamboat. Initially, the soup is not bad but they added tom yum stock into it which i disliked the taste. We eat until super full before having some grapes, tea and indulgence of those sinful chocolates.

We explored Gina's " shuai ge" baby photos and her parents' collections of trophies, pagers, handphones and badges. We even got to know that her mum worked as a macdonald staff and even served in the army before with a rank of sergeant. Cool. Went home with C.c with some thoughts discussed with him..






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Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Update of my life

Have been rotting at home most of the time this month. Suddenly, i feel so empty.. every time i wake up no one is at home... my phone has no msg, has no missed calls, all i have is just disappointment. Apparently, i thought i was ok with no sch life, and alone at home till i get my enlistment date. I was wrong. Maybe i should delete my facebook account. Facebook is the only mean of catching up what my friends are doing in sch... However, I am envy of those outings pictures, events pictures, and comments, discussion that friends actively got. Seeing them made me seriously sad sub-consciously. I dunno why..

Even now when i go for outings, i felt speechless. Those close buddies and friends are cold, we did not have those plentiful common topics which we had when i am still at sch, . I felt odd out, left out, i felt lonely. Someone taught me this, friends can categorized into 3 categories....

(1)Acquaintance (those that you know them, but least or little amount of interaction)
(2)Normal friends/Cliques (those that you know them to the extent of understanding them)
(3)Buddies/best friends (those that you can have heart to heart talk to, strong mutual trust, gives good advices, encouragement and suggestions when you are in the bad times)

In my heart i know that to them i am getting close to (1) I wished to maintain the times that most of them are (2) or (3) but sad to say; now I cant really find a (3). The number of (2)s are also very limited. I am getting close to where i was when i was in primary and secondary sch... almost near zero catching-up with my ex-classmates. My inferiority inside myself is ruling me again. Maybe i should self-outcast myself, i sensed friends that saw me emo-ing and tried starting a conversation but end up in an awkward silence which i really disliked.

I just pray hard my enlistment is as close as possible so as to know what kind of work can try find or escape to the army to prevent me from thinking too much, away from the pain. i cant blamed them but myself for deciding to drop out.

Tertiary lecturers are just working for the high pay, unlike primary or secondary sch where teachers are working to help the students to pass exams and continue on with their studies. I did experienced this from the appeal of restarting my course of study. They are good at pretending to help you but at the back preventing those students bad in studies affect their reputation of their courses/schools... cruelty of the real world.


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Sunday, August 8, 2010

If u see this, just have a minute of silence for our beloved friend cindy tan





When i woke up this morning and i got like 10sms that she had an car accident and passed away. I was stunned. She has been a cheerful and fun friend to have whenever i feel low during the camp activities, she will always hype-up the atmosphere with her creative ideas and positive attitude. I loved the company of her in facebook games where she is always so enthu in... the last i saw her online was the night before and something happen this morning ='(

i enjoyed the time when i was in the same station games, mass games with her as GPs. Knew her since our batch FOC 08/09... sociable and friendly girl. A friend that i will miss, and will never be the same without her in our lives. Rest in peace, my friend.

Give a minute of silence thinking of what she has done to make an impact in our lives.


Cherish those around, Dont think that they will always be around for you, as life is always full of unexpected.





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Saturday, July 3, 2010

fade...

Some heart-aching, precious stuffs has to just let it slowly fade away.

Not being in school for such a long time made me feel so drift off from them. Events and issues that does not concern me anymore, they are just memories that most seniors will feel the same, each generation has their own stories to tell. What i can do i just hope for the best for them, walking down the year with their own stories to pass down to the next generation. Felt a bit sour of the smiles that they had and i am not there to experience and be with them. It let me wonder whether i do make a difference in one's life. Secondary school is one failure that i made, where there is hidden ostracism against me made my school life bad and most of my classmates doesnt know except for the culprits. Let the past be past, I should just look forward and let me fade away from their life, from CSCC.

Ok. Now about me. I am going for the NS medical checkup on 7 july. Hope it goes smoothly. With this nafa and NS is coming real soon. I tried running and my stamina gone down so bad that 2 rounds are my maximum, confirm go in NS 2/3 months earlier.

What i had done for the last month:
-Ate chong pang nasi lemak and enjoy the spring at sembawang road with chor chuan and edward
-Tried running 2.4km but failed. in the end run 2 round and walk the rest.
-Organised the yr3 steamboat at tian tian huo guo.
-Sent Willie off to Canada, for those who dont know, he migrated
-Mahjong with Gary, Junchai and Matt at Jc's house. x2
-Sent Gina to airport for her China trip
-celebrated Piah Wee birthday
-Watched Karate Kid with the new batch of MCs.

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Sick and tired for living for ppl

In the morning, i happily went to buy breakfast for family. When i came back i just sit down there using a ear hook to clear those ear shit. Suddenly, my mum came and pushed my head. The pain. I pierced my ear. I felt angry and went into my room slamming the door. i laid on my bed. Some wet stuff drip onto my hand. zzz... my ear bled. a lot of thoughts went thru my mind. am i going to be deaf, y did my mum has to do this, y did i spend my money to buy breakfast and this is wat i get in return. i cried the whole morning and emo-ly felt asleep.

i felt my life miserable. i fail in my studies, i drift away from my frens, i fell out with my family every now an then over samll issues. Maybe today is the day to announce that i dun wanna care about anything le. No point contributing when the other party dont appreciate. Sorries after hurting is no use. i tolerate enuff le, everytime i get hurted, in outings, in gatherings, in meetings. Outings whr i m just one that add up to the number, gathering that i am the one trying to mingle ard instead of ppl saying hi to me, in meetings which i m disrespected when i m the chairperson or when i m trying to help with ideas. Smiling away from these is just a cover. Getting used doesnt mean wont get hurted. everyone is wearing a mask. Hiding their inner true self, acting cheerful, i m one of them.

I over-estimated myself. y i wanna def other ppl when i cant even def myself. heard close frens talking bad and suspecting about another close frens' character. Heard frens that talked about sth not true about someone, may it be seniors, juniors, and buddies. i argued over some of these matters that i feel not right but they are just wind blowing past their ears and ignored them.

i shd just not care anymore. May it be breaks, injuries, leaving,gatherings relationships, CCA, club issues i dun care le. time to care about myself more....

Monday, May 10, 2010

My Friends

Friendship is like a violin; the music may stop now and then, but the strings will last forever.

This quote sounds so good to be used within friends.

Today i had a nightmare. And u know wat... somehow i dreamt of me dying in an road accident while helping Edward Chan-.- to take an elderly cross the road and the next moment i am at my house like nothing happen. I knew i am dead but my parents at home said nothing and they do know with the scars and injuries on my face. In the end, i cried and woke up from my sleep with my eyes filled with tears.

This is not the first time i have friends in my dream. But somehow whenever they are in my dreams, i died. A dream that accompany me for years was my primary school friend appearing. Vividly, i remembered his name as Koh Chia Wei. We lost contact in lower primary. Whenever this dream happen, my inner self felt a unexplainable, pure happy. I am so happy meeting him there, playing and so on. But happy things dun always last, a large big suffocating rock crushed me from the sky and the next moment i am awake.

The strings of friendship are hard to break. I am afraid of forgetting my friends=(

Saturday, March 20, 2010

Had been working at my auntie stall recently... nearly one month le. Though the pay is low, i get to eat the food my auntie sells for all i can, one month of vegeterian. Learnt how to prepare and cook some dishes le, laksa, kway chap, sheng mian and hor fun..haha.

Business are slightly slow in the afternoon where i slacked around.
Current visitors to my stall: seto, hwee sheng, hongyi, ziping, chor chuan

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Love is strong yet delicate.
It can be broken.
To truly love is to understand this.
To be in love is to respect this.

- Stephen Packer -

This is a poem/quote that i seen when i blog-hop to a cca senior's dead blog. I believed that this is true love is such a strong affection but also fragile. My buddies and friends around me broke up recently. Didnt know how to comfort them... had being single for the 20yrs in my life, crushes that got attached just before i can do anything, bad luck ba... cant do anything since both of the couples are friends too.
Hope that these phrases can make them feel better.

2010 is a lousy year for all of us...i hate tiger!!

Saturday, March 6, 2010

CS 08/09 outing.

Attendance has not been good. 4 girls and 2 guys. Mayling, Kek Bing, Daphne and Julia with the pathetic two guys me and junxian. The rest had something on so couldnt make it for the outing. Anyway, meaningful outing when we are able to discuss what we had done in the past and all the updates from various people that hasn't been going for CSCC events for so long.

Had a good undertstanding for my buddy's situation and hoped that he can find a solution for his problem. As per normal, Julia's laughter spread all over the steamboat shop until the customers inside also tried to be funny and copied her laughter. Wahaha. Hoping for the next CS outing with more attendance. Missed the time that Julia lead us for CS events, instilling the correct CS value, attitude into us in a fun, interesting way.

CSCC day's progress seemed to be slow. Some of the major tasks are done up only by some of the OCs. Thanks Jiahui, Melvin, Gary, Xianying and Gina for thonning the night to finish up some of the work. Really hope that the rest of the OC can buck up and help out as the date is nearing. I believed all of you have to the potential to be a leader, team player for the event to work successfully.

Gd luck to CSCC day and FOC, FOW and SG..

Sunday, February 28, 2010

Widened horizons

What happened to my studies are my own fault, it had being done and nothing can really change it. I somehow got over the sadness that i experienced with some help from declusion into gaming, distract myself from thinking too much or crying over it again. Thankful to those that really cared and supported me through this tough moments, even it is a small phrases like " jiayous" means a lot to me. Hopefully life will be better after NSor with better luck that the director of SB give me another chance. Special thanks to Gina that gave a great pull from the bottomless pit.

Anyway, recently i tend to accidently step into people sensitive topics, issues that indirectly hurted them. Due to the issues of my studies, i did not went school and CCA clubhouse for quite a while, and so i did not know about the happenings in club.
She did not do any big actions and put a strong front that fooled me until i read her blog then i know i made a big mistake. I added salt onto her wounds. Felt like slapping myself. Sorries.

CSCC day may be the last event i doing for my CCA. Placed a lot of effort in it. Really hope that it will be a success although problems came out like participant almost doubled my targetted. Trying to salvage the problem by adjusting the budgets. How I wished that all my friends that I made in CSCC come for this events, but quite impossible as some MIA-ed due to conflicts, arguements. Why must there be such things presented in friendships?

Although I am not Christian, I felt that their teachings are valuable, phrases such as "forgive and forget" applied so much to daily life. Forgive and forget the mistake your friends did to you, and everything end well. Admit and Remorse the mistake you did to your friends, and your friendship strengthens. Pin-pointing each other mistake will not do any good, gossiping about it to others make things worse; both turns into enemies and ignore when you bumped into each other. What good will it do?

Lasttly, just wanna say all the best to all of my friends for their exams and ITPs. And i faithfully trust that you will do something to salvage your broken friendships if any, after reading this.

Friday, February 12, 2010

what shd i do?


I am very lost now. 2 paths in front of me. Either i forward all my modules and get a cui diploma in the end or give up poly and go on to army. Questioning myself for very long and has been escaping from the problems through CCA activity, outing with friends even inside the virtual world. Insomnia haunting me almost 3mths le. Everyday slept at 5-6am, wake up late, go club rot, went home with friends.


Told my parents my situation today. Feeling dam sad now. I have been an introvert since secondary sch. Never able to express myself well enuff. CSCC gave me a new life. No one ever know that my inner self is lacking of confidence, even have suicidal thoughts during my low valley of life, and this time it is coming back. Maybe my fake impression manage to fool everyone as a cheerful, playful, guai lan character. I am like a beautifully designed vase that the flowers inside it is bleeding with tears every now and then, but people only get to see my exterior.






Sunday, January 10, 2010


i am feeling emotionally stressed. Firstly, i cant get details for deferment cos my PTN has been MIA from her office. really messed up in my studies... hope to be given another chance to study DAC again. Secondly, my dad said things at my back that really hurt my heart. he said it in front my younger sibilings somemore. i nid family support rite now and he was like dropping stone into my heart. pain in my heart is stacking ='(
















Monday, December 14, 2009

Update...

Long time nv blog le...

Some updates, went for standard chartered marrathon as a helper recently. Being posted as a medic stretcher bearer, i had to station near the finishing line to "catch" those tired-out runners to the medic tents. Ard the first 2hrs, our job tend to be relaxed as the top few runners started to run in. However, during the third hour nightmare started to come, when crowds and crowds of runners came in, casulties starts to increase and our only wheelchair is not enough. We had to use the backup stretcher to carry the injured to the medic in group of 4. It is not easy as you think, my first try was "ouch". My back and shoulder is aching when i and the other 3 helper carried a female ard 70kg to the medic tent.

70/4=17.5kg, each of us nid to carry ard 17.kg of weight and she was feeling uneasy on it, movin her weight to each of us.

The crowd of runner near the finishing line did not end even after 3hrs. During the end of the event, all the medic stretcher bearer are recalled to have our lunch. Unlimited access of 100plus, lunchboxes and specially given to us, a carton of nescafe. Things to not end here as there are a few runners having problems and we had to still bring wheelchairs and stretcher to bring them to tent. For one instant, we have to run all the way to MRT station from padang to fetch one guy back, it was said that he vomitted 5 times after the run. It is fun, other than the hot sun, it is quite a interesting and meaningful experience.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

Fresh start

Managed to came sch early today. Hm.. not much of an achievement but hope to maintain it for this week.

I dunno wat to say when i hav to work with ppl i dun close with. Cant communicate, totally different frequency, most of my ideas kinda rejected without much consideration on. Maybe they are not good enough, too cui compared to theirs? i admit i am not as IT savvy as them, english not as good as some of them, even my confidence loses them. Just have to slowly endure to the end of the project. REN REN REN.

Classes in poly is really kinda small, not like secondary school of 40 where you can turn to other classmates when you are outcast by certain clique or group.

All the best to myself. Have to chiong CSCC day stuff soon, hopefully by this week





Thursday, November 12, 2009

Bucking up...somehow..

Trying to go sch as often or daily as possible... aiming to succeed...
Hm.. Project stuffs, CCA events are wearing me down fast... Dunno wat to do.. decidin to quit one of them... Maybe we are in yr 2 le... everything become not as fresh as in yr1... the culture of the CCAs did not really treasure the year 2s and yr3. Some of them felt that they are being called back for sai kang, put nicely in words are "pass down knowledge".
One of the cca's senior told me the attitudes of the officers changes 180 degrees after u turn yr2, in yr3 even worse, 360degrees turn? I experienced it somehow..
I am scared of ppl that is two-headed, in front of u, they are smiling but behind u they are badmouthing and yet u tot that they are your frens
Anyways, my parents and sis going for an vacation to taiwan. Cant go due to sch period. Lonely with my bro at home loh....sigh..



Monday, November 2, 2009

Blank

I dunno wat i m doing nowdays, ponning sch almost everyday. Lost interest in studies. Kinda quarrel and having cold wars with parents every now and then. Memory is failing me. Forget about events dates, meeting dates, even the time of outings with some friends. What i do at home most probably switching the tv but yet staring into the space, can spend 5hrs of my sleeping time just doing that. Even what i enjoyed most, gaming also kinda lost interest. Having problems in controling my appetite, feeling hungry 1hr after my main meals, craving for sweet stuffs,tibits. My life is a mess.





Monday, October 26, 2009

IPOD

Experienced Inter-primers Olympic Day on sat, i am given the post as a sub-orgainising commitee at the basketball section. Hm.. basically my jobscope is to record the score and look out for fouls. Quite interesting to be watching people play instead of me being inside the game, less stress and more new experience. Got to know the adult leader, Dylan, as the main referee of the matches. Glad to have him as partner, fun pointing out people's mistake although i am not that pro.
There are some hilarious moment when a pair of twins sister of different sch (one from ngee ann and one from nanyang) are man-marking (defending) each other. Had troubles differ them from each other when they even wearing the same shoes. Due to too many teams and members, we have issues to identify them to fault them with their fouls. Dylan came out with a funny idea of giving them a nickname such as red, red with black, bb polo, tall one, short one. So almost all the participants had a nickname given by us. haha.
In the finals, it is SP vs NYP. Tough fight and eventually SP emerge as champs. Kinda disappointed as my heart support NYP, as they showed tremendous skills and teamwork compared to SP.
After the whole basketball competition is done, we went to the stadium to wait for other sports items to complete. Hmm.. somehow my previous Boys' brigade senior, Wenwei, participanted in the captain ball item and saw me. My heart told me" suay arh".( throwed paper planes at him and went MIA during secondary sch CCA) Glad he didnt say much but he felt surprised that i joined primers but gave some encouraging words to me.
Hope to join IPOD again=]












Friday, October 23, 2009

My 'big' day

22 OCt, yes! My birthday! 19th time that i celebrated this. 2nd time in poly. Thankful to those who gave me the celebration and b'day wishes. What is different from last year? Eh... Got just one extra present then last year but in exchange a smaller cake. Dunno why the feeling is kinda different, last year's celebration seemed to be more sincere and meaningful, in the way more surprizing and friends really gave their time to plan and celebrate. This year, i m still grateful that friends celebrated with me, maybe too repetitative in celebrating each other birthdays since year 1 and tends to be too "sian", or i am too sensitive? Noticed some that dun really wanted to celebrate yet just joined in to look around. Missed the days in CS subcom, the days before FO activities started and the days before being a MC. Too many changes that had to adapt.

My wishes are.... 1.Able to maintain contacts with frens even after poly life
2.Pass my modules and get my certificate
3.Freedom on internet access at home
4.All the best to my frens in everyways...





Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Is it really a holiday?

Sunday, September 27, 2009

Treasure

There are some key words that we had been forgetting to live by. " Treasure" is one of them. May it be your family, your teacher, your friends, your neighbour or your best buddy. I felt kinda sad when i found out some of my friends are leaving soon. Knew them from different phrases of life. Today they may be here with you, playing and studying in the same school with you but the next moment they are migrating or moving on to other path of life away from you. A few months more and he will be leaving out of no choice. Treasure the time you are with him/her or you will regret.

Anyway, back early from connection camp of CSCC. Had to came back early to rest and study for taxation make-up. Did u ever heard someone study during camp time.. WTH.. Zzz. Quite tiring to be logics this time as there is only 2 logics and edward had to leave early for ipoh LTC by SAA.

Planned to play dota when i had free time in camp with the other gamers like willie and chor chuan and so on.. but in the end we didnt got much time to play. Get to participate in some of the stations which is quite fun to tekan yr1 with forfeits and task although there are some accidents and injuries which dampen some spirits for being slowed down and unable to participate.

Went home with kienan today towards Jurong East to Khatib. Woohoo!First time people routed a big round to pei me as he stayed in hougang. Felt glad to have buddies^^ (usually is i pei ppl go a big round home to chit chat a little longer)
Treasured every moment in poly, those feelings and attitude that i didnt entitled the chance to receive and give in secondary school.

Sigh. My exam results sux. Failed FACC... forward le.. Emp Emo Emo






Sunday, September 13, 2009

Rough-It- Out Camp

Back from camp at Ubin, away from the urban accessories, and embraced ourselves to the sights and music of nature. The sound of the tides, the constant cicada and criket sound, the sight of the mud lobster, mudskippers, snakes, monitor lizards and wild boars. Peaceful atmosphere during the camp other than the frequent mozzies bites.

We have a rooftop over us at the auntie siew eng backyard house. Girls, i felt, wasted having to sleep in the rooms. Cos the guys slept at the open area outside the room where it is definitely cooler and good scenery in the morning.

Other than survival cooking in camps, this camp is a camp whr we get to plan wat we eat, canned food, soft drink, fruit juice, macoroni, beehoon or rice. All meals are to be prepared by ourselves.
Bathing there is another challedging and interesting issues over there. Woohoo, kampong style, even toilet are kampong style, whr all ur wastes get washed away by the tides below you.

We name our group Super.Senior (p.s: Super junior's Senior). Mindset:( Shi Jun-> S.J-> Super Junior-> Super Senior!!) Why? Cos our group consist of all yr 2, whr the rest are mixed with yr1 and yr2. Basically, the games are the common bonding station games, but i like the process whr our group got high over camp songs like the jia kim jio, and the titanic, especially our GL, Shi jun who liked to sing " OH I M SAD, Oh I M SAD! when the ship went to the btm of the sea"

Another activity to highlight is the gala night, commonly known as the the talentime in camps. Theme is RIO. I believed our group did the best with hilarious and exagerating scenes we planned out from experiences we have on the island. HOHO=)

Out of this camp, i learned that Caring, Sharing and Waiting for each other is what makes the primers family. Thankful that i got into this group and the GL and facil we got. Definitely a fun camp that is worth going and ROUGHING IT OUT. Hope to meet up with the campmates again. Haha.






Wednesday, September 9, 2009

Final decisions

I checked the blackboard le.. there shdnt be any make-up for the semestral exam. Most likely i am forwarded. My MC is approved. My status on the modules, taxation and B.law is not registered. Hm.. dunno wat will happen but hopefully no modules will be pushed back or else i will be guaduating late. Just have to wait for the time table and the results of the other modules to come out.

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Troubled

Hm... Two days MC and i missed 2 papers. Tax and B.law. Terribly sick at the wrong time. Zzz.. read the rules and regulation of the school.

It wrote "Where a student is granted leave of absence from the semestral exam, the module shall be removed from the list of modules registered by him for that semester and he shall not be considered to have made one attempt in the examination for that module. The student must attend all classes and sit for all assessments for the module in a subsequent semester in which that module is offered, subject to the maximum number of modules allowed for that stage of study and the constraints of the class time-table."


Does it mean i will have to forward module or otherwise? Hopefully have make-up test instead, will graduate half year later if forward.... Sian, what should I do...

Tomorrow will need to visit the office or tutors to confirm. Throat infection and fever why do you find me at this very important time. =(





Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Sleepless Nites

Studying overnight is burning my health away. Visited doctor today and took MC. Just 2 more papers to go. Endure. Nid to find out whether B.law have make-up test ma. Feeling lonely at home everyday, noticed lots of pictures of the couples that kept appearing at facebook, couples walking ard the street, couples eating at the coffeeshop. Sigh. Status remained at single. Under the concept of human evolution, human was evolved from primapes, they hunt in groups and companionship is important to them. Humans today have those genes and feel out of place when being left out. Terrible feeling. Certainly, i did have crushes. I do not know how to express and always it is too late for any actions. Taking a hour bus ride back home instead of other faster modes has being a way of distressing myself, placing myself at the very last corner of the bus, emo-ing; looking out of the window; observing at the different types of people dropping in and out of the bus. Peace find its way to my heart, away from the past memories of certain incident that pierce my heart deeply.

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Study and Holiday

5 papers coming up. Sianz. Still need a lot to catch up, really nid to buck up le. Holiday is just after the exams, suppose to be happy about it but tasks, activities and events filled up most slots. 5 dollars in the past seemed to be able to tide me over food, transport and lan. Going back home straight after school within 10mins are motivation for me, no commitments, no cca to burden me down. Receiving phone calls and SMSs are surprises for me. Now it is so different, having to cope with the additional things in my life. 10dollars now always seemed to little, always not enough, cos have to settle 2-3 meals in school almost daily. Going back home from school is a terrible period, time wasting and lonely. Indeed, i have much more friends in Poly now, more open towards knowing new friends, either from CCA or class. Thus, more commitment, responsibility and social issues occurs. juggling outings, cca and study, priorise is important. Feeling guilty of rejecting some of them, cos no money equals to no outings, borrowing money from friends is not a good choice.

Monday, August 10, 2009

National day wasted

National day suppose to be a day whr everyone rejoice on the b'day of Singapore. Public holiday and supple rest are what everyone is expecting and look forward to. Yet, I am spending the time at my house watching drama series in my house bored, cos my sis like to repeatedly watch the same series, same episodes. Sigh. I didnt even watch the national day parade show. B.law has to be chiong out by today too.. Busy, Busy and busy. Happy b'day Waffy, National day baby!!