Fresh start

Managed to came sch early today. Hm.. not much of an achievement but hope to maintain it for this week.

I dunno wat to say when i hav to work with ppl i dun close with. Cant communicate, totally different frequency, most of my ideas kinda rejected without much consideration on. Maybe they are not good enough, too cui compared to theirs? i admit i am not as IT savvy as them, english not as good as some of them, even my confidence loses them. Just have to slowly endure to the end of the project. REN REN REN.

Classes in poly is really kinda small, not like secondary school of 40 where you can turn to other classmates when you are outcast by certain clique or group.

All the best to myself. Have to chiong CSCC day stuff soon, hopefully by this week

Bucking up...somehow..

Trying to go sch as often or daily as possible... aiming to succeed...
Hm.. Project stuffs, CCA events are wearing me down fast... Dunno wat to do.. decidin to quit one of them... Maybe we are in yr 2 le... everything become not as fresh as in yr1... the culture of the CCAs did not really treasure the year 2s and yr3. Some of them felt that they are being called back for sai kang, put nicely in words are "pass down knowledge".
One of the cca's senior told me the attitudes of the officers changes 180 degrees after u turn yr2, in yr3 even worse, 360degrees turn? I experienced it somehow..
I am scared of ppl that is two-headed, in front of u, they are smiling but behind u they are badmouthing and yet u tot that they are your frens
Anyways, my parents and sis going for an vacation to taiwan. Cant go due to sch period. Lonely with my bro at home loh....sigh..

Blank

I dunno wat i m doing nowdays, ponning sch almost everyday. Lost interest in studies. Kinda quarrel and having cold wars with parents every now and then. Memory is failing me. Forget about events dates, meeting dates, even the time of outings with some friends. What i do at home most probably switching the tv but yet staring into the space, can spend 5hrs of my sleeping time just doing that. Even what i enjoyed most, gaming also kinda lost interest. Having problems in controling my appetite, feeling hungry 1hr after my main meals, craving for sweet stuffs,tibits. My life is a mess.