Study and Holiday

5 papers coming up. Sianz. Still need a lot to catch up, really nid to buck up le. Holiday is just after the exams, suppose to be happy about it but tasks, activities and events filled up most slots. 5 dollars in the past seemed to be able to tide me over food, transport and lan. Going back home straight after school within 10mins are motivation for me, no commitments, no cca to burden me down. Receiving phone calls and SMSs are surprises for me. Now it is so different, having to cope with the additional things in my life. 10dollars now always seemed to little, always not enough, cos have to settle 2-3 meals in school almost daily. Going back home from school is a terrible period, time wasting and lonely. Indeed, i have much more friends in Poly now, more open towards knowing new friends, either from CCA or class. Thus, more commitment, responsibility and social issues occurs. juggling outings, cca and study, priorise is important. Feeling guilty of rejecting some of them, cos no money equals to no outings, borrowing money from friends is not a good choice.

National day wasted

National day suppose to be a day whr everyone rejoice on the b'day of Singapore. Public holiday and supple rest are what everyone is expecting and look forward to. Yet, I am spending the time at my house watching drama series in my house bored, cos my sis like to repeatedly watch the same series, same episodes. Sigh. I didnt even watch the national day parade show. B.law has to be chiong out by today too.. Busy, Busy and busy. Happy b'day Waffy, National day baby!!

Friendship or Success is more important?

Thinking of this since two days ago. Strikes my mind everynow and then. Friendship seemed so vulnerable, so valueless to some ppl, some treat it more seriously and felt No friend equals to No social life. My soul set myself to the one that treat friendship more than success.

Dunno why I am dreaming of my primary sch friends, the times we spent, the arguements we had.. it had faded vividly but it gave me such a strong, hard feelings. Maybe there is no burdens, no fakes, no backstabs, everyone is innocent and speaks their minds. As ppl grew up, they are afraid of being hurt, afraid of being outcasted, is this the life we wanted?? Living to please ppl??

An invisible barrier appears, isolating a slight space between everyone, and maintain a relationship so-called " Hi and Bye" frens, afraid your darkest secret is exposed. Is success that important? So wat if u achieve the success that u wanted and dropped into loneliness ? Are you really happy of your achievements or you are happy because u pleased someone? If i am to choose, i want the joy of the achievements to be shared among true friends, and those that lent u a helping hand, and not to please other ppl's expectation of me.

I think i will keep this blog wordy and not full with pictures. Thoughts are better understandable in words and speaks more than the photos that you posted.

Surprisingly and nervous

First time in yr2 that i m not late for Cost tutorial, LOL, it may not be some honourable thing to boost about but it is quite an achievement for me to drag myself from bed to sch. Tempted andrew and derek to go AMK sumo hse to hav dinner, haha, we r like so "siam siap", each of us drank ard 5cups of their free-flow green tea before leaving. Our b.law project's have being spilt and each of us is compiling our part on thurs. Exam is getting closer and closer.

More work up to do.

There is meeting today for CSCC, attendance is poor today as many ppl has diploma plus, projects and personal matters. Hav dinner with Wei chuan; luckily at home nv cook dinner or else i sure overeat again.. haha. B.law project is up today and deadline is really soon. GEM quiz is coming soon too. Sian..sigh..

Bored at home

Ytd thon the nite watch " harry potter" and " the ramen girl". Harry potter is kinda disappointing, cos dun understand some of the details and speech they talked.(bad subtitles).Slept ard 6am in the morning. Just woke up at 2.30pm. Exams is nearing and i m still lost at my studies especially tax, cost and facc. Nid to find some study buddies fast. Nid to exercise more too, my input> my output. Hope someone will organise some basketball sessions at sch^^. Today is the 3rd day of the wake of my great-grandma, going there in the evening.