Bucking up...somehow..

Trying to go sch as often or daily as possible... aiming to succeed...
Hm.. Project stuffs, CCA events are wearing me down fast... Dunno wat to do.. decidin to quit one of them... Maybe we are in yr 2 le... everything become not as fresh as in yr1... the culture of the CCAs did not really treasure the year 2s and yr3. Some of them felt that they are being called back for sai kang, put nicely in words are "pass down knowledge".
One of the cca's senior told me the attitudes of the officers changes 180 degrees after u turn yr2, in yr3 even worse, 360degrees turn? I experienced it somehow..
I am scared of ppl that is two-headed, in front of u, they are smiling but behind u they are badmouthing and yet u tot that they are your frens
Anyways, my parents and sis going for an vacation to taiwan. Cant go due to sch period. Lonely with my bro at home loh....sigh..